Wed_Feb_27_12:00:48_PST_2019

Hope this week is better than last, the weather put me off going into the office quite a bit but more so was my damn stomach
ￂﾠ Whether its because I know what is causing it or whether it is just getting worse I don't know
ￂﾠ On top of everything else we have both had a bug, the one that makes you rush to the loo!ￂﾠ It isn't much fun feeling crap to start with then having additional low stomach pains too
ￂﾠ Although I've was at home most of last week I've scarely been on face book or blogging, I am in one of those I don't know what I want moods
ￂﾠ Stupid really as we have been given such good news I should still be high on it, yet I feel so down
ￂﾠ I guess my stomach problem is to blame for this feeling, if I could just have one morning where I woke up feeling good it would make all the difference
ￂﾠ It is annoying as I have no pains from the meso that are getting me down, I would be Normal if it wasn't for this blasted stomach, sorry I am going on and on a bit but I just want to be normal! ￂﾠ Reading my fellow bloggers, Ray, Mavis's sweet husband, has had a couple of heart attacks, which came to a shock to us all, Steve had wonderful news and I hope he and Linda are now living the high life, although still recovering from the chemo after effects, Debbie isn't well and holding back chemo and Ray has been quite breathless recently
ￂﾠ We all live and deal with mesothelioma in such different ways, I guess as a small handful of those we represent we show a broad spectrum of what life can be like
ￂﾠ Mine at the moment is moan, moan and moan!ￂﾠ I wish I could have the courage to try surgery as I am sure my quality of life would be improved but I am so worried that the meso is pulled into my abdomen that the QoL would be short lived!ￂﾠ I do hope that when we board this ship end of April the movement makes my stomach feel better, who knows all those waves could make the bile exit the correct way instead of trying to come into my throat! ￂﾠ I can see why only the brave try to have their own books printed, what a carry on when dealing with printers and getting IBSN numbers
ￂﾠ The one good thing about doing it myself is no agent will be taking a fee at the end of the day so that means more goes to the charity but then printing is an expensive layout when you have your first order of books
ￂﾠ It's not that I know I will sell hundreds so I can't order a mass amount that will make it cheaper, apart from that I need to think of storage!ￂﾠ Obviously the bad thing is no publicity either, which then means less sales
ￂﾠ Its a no win situation
ￂﾠ I have spent some of my miserable week working on the second book of the series, trying to keep my mind off the loo
ￂﾠ I hate wasting a day in front of the TV, to me that isn't being alive, but then sitting in front of this damn computer isn't one either
ￂﾠ I need to go into the office today, yet looking out at the cold and the wind I wish I could just hibernate for a few more days!ￂﾠ ￂﾠ Hope spring arrives soon then summer shortly afterwards