Thu_Apr_11_08:00:38_PDT_2019

What a week we are having from hot weather to brutally cold days then muggy nights
ￂﾠ Today was my visit by to the physiotherapist, I asked him to be gentle with me as it seems this nerve problem is doing all kinds of weird and unwonderful things
ￂﾠ Who could believe that even passing water could become so painful, no stinging but a dull pain in the muscles
ￂﾠ He reiterated that the damage will take months to correct and that the brain is trying to deal with the different signals, hence the pain travels to different places
ￂﾠ Please I begged, I just want to be normal!ￂﾠ To think this all started with some strange spasm in my left leg when I lifted it a certain height or went to sit or cross or my legs
ￂﾠ Ever since surgery I have stayed away from massages on my back, allowing only along my shoulders even though I would love a great back rub
ￂﾠ Now I wonder if I had allowed a back massage would I be having all this trouble now?ￂﾠ Although by the time he has pressed on my poor left side, where all my thickening resides I wonder if I am doing more damage than good
ￂﾠ We take so much for granted, I just seem to go from one pain event to another, maybe if I turn my thoughts around and say give me more pain it might just disappear!ￂﾠ Now that would be nice
ￂﾠ Manyￂﾠmeso warriors around the world are facing rounds of chemotherapy or trials for new drugs, it is frightening now to think how many people actually have this terrible cancer and yet we are no further forward than we were 8 years ago with a different chemotherapy treatment
ￂﾠ If asbestos is a natural fibre then somewhere near its mining area most be something that can destroy it
ￂﾠ I wish there was a dog leaf we could eat that killed the tumours that develop in our bodies
ￂﾠ I am also still upset at the fact I am still waiting for my results, by the time I get them it will be 2 months to the next scan, (if that is actually done on time) not much time for celebrating all is ok, then today I received another letter with a different appointment date for my oncologist
ￂﾠ I'm not sure whether the one in early June has been cancelled and the one end of June is now replacing it which will make it nearly 9 weeks after the scan
ￂﾠ Another job tomorrow to ring and see what is going on
ￂﾠ Lexi came through her surgery, thankfully
ￂﾠ Although we were worried as when we rang at 1 pm she was still under her blanket and not moving much
ￂﾠ They found two tumours and removed both together with a small lump removed from her rear right ankle and one from the top of her left rear paw
ￂﾠ Then they looked at her pile and removed that, only to end up having to stitch inside her anus as the pile was much deeper than anticipated
ￂﾠ The poor dog is not a happy girl, she looks at hubby adoringly and gives me daggers
ￂﾠ Maybe because I'm the one that gives her the nasty tasting meds! ￂﾠ That's it from here, hope we all live to fight another year, we are driven by the will to live and long may that continue